over promised

I've been really unsuccessful on ditching social media. There are times when I ask myself if I can actually abandon it entirely or if I just need a good break. I have however, spent a whole lot less time on it. I no longer just scroll to scroll. That feels good. But maybe I take back the "say no to social media forever" promise. Balance. Life is all about balance. Just like I can have cake every once in a while if I've been eating my veggies. But It can't be like balls to the wall- screw it. Give me all the cake. I've been there and I wasn't able to button my pants. My largest pair of pants at that. Balance. 

Instead of spending most of my time viewing other peoples life snippets, I've been flourishing with all that is going on in my own. My kids are growing up so fast. I know I said this already, but really. This weeks was a hard one. The boys moved from the nursery room at church to the big 2-3 year old class. I wasn't prepared for that one. Not sure where my brain was exactly. I shamelessly cried. Ugly face and all. It was like a sucker punch to the gut when I least expected it. I still get teary when I think about it. Then the girls got to upgrade to bikes without training wheels yesterday. It was such a mix of feelings. Proud of how well they are doing and how quickly they were just able to hop on their bikes with only two wheels, to complete sadness and inside I was really crying because how? How are they growing up. They were so little not that long ago. I can still picture their pudgy little hands and feet. Hay's curls bouncing with every step. 

I guess maybe because no one tells you that one day, you will just take their training wheels off and they will just get it. They will fly down the cul-de-sac like all they needed was a breeze to push them along.  I am currently charging my camera battery which has been dead for a good month, at least. I am going to be putting my phone away for a large portion of our summer. I am excited to force myself to pick up the real thing to document life, the perfectly imperfect. I want to look back in 5 years and see how amazing life is now.